Tuesday, December 2, 2008

in memory of Yzabel's DAD

(in commemorating his 2nd death anniversary on the 10th of December)

there goes a line that.."lucky is the man who was the first love of a woman, but luckier is the woman who was the last love of a man..."


HANGANG by Wency Cornejo is our love song..we'll atleast for a period of time that we we're together..

our love story begins when i became so addicted to chatting...and that when my previous boyfriend and i are at wavy/rocky situation..

i met this man named Zeus, at the internet, or should i say through the internet...he's from manila and i am from palawan..we we're just friends...we regularly talked..and chat through mIRC and Yahoo Msger.

we we're close friends...he would tell me all those girls na naka-fling nya dahil sa chat..mga babaeng naka-sex nya...mga babaeng na sya ang nakauna...in short mga babaeng sinaktan nya..early 2004 yun..and then...i was having trouble in my law school at the province...at the same time having a family dispute over some fortune my aunt won, we decided na d2 na sa manila mag-transfer..for me to relax and be less stressed..

but prior to that, there was this promo made by globe...yung unlimited call and text for all globe subscribers..and i availed one..that time i was trying to reach out on my ex-boyfriend...Ralph..who was an engineer...kamukha sya actually ni John Estrada. hehehe so, i tried patching up things with him,but he was just ignoring me..or should i say he taken me for granted....his alibi was busy daw sya sa pagaasikaso sa mga requirements nya for work..but i was sick and tired of all those alibis...ako n nga tumatawag sa knya wala pa din effect..

so, one night, i decided to browse my celphone..hanap ng globe number na pdeng matawagan..and then there was Zeus' number...ayun...sya tinawagan ko..usap usap..kwento kwento..
that was march 2005..mga panahon na yun nagkakagulo na kami ni ralph..and right after our anniversary, we cooled off..but was never reconciled..ayun..dun na nman nagsimula ang kwentuhan nmin ni zeus..one night after my gimik with my fellow law students in palawan..i was tipsy...well hindi tipsy...bangenge tlaga sa kalasingan..and kausap ko sa cel si zeus..as in pinagtyagaan nya akong kausapin,,,pakingan..nilambing nya ako..(simula pala march 19, 2005 til the end the promo kausap ko 24/7 si zeus sa phone...Lobat lang katapat naming dalawa...cguro we are meant to be that way.)that night after the gimik...i went home late na...cguro mga 2am...still kausap pa din nya ako...that night was the turning point of everything...along the way that we talked...we did something that we bith enjoyed..hehehe (censored na sya)...

the following morning, everything was different..Zeus started calling me sweetie...started saying iloveyou...and he started saying that he cares...and ayun...dun nagsimula relationship nmin...starting then on..i fell inlove...with him..and on the 1day of april that year we commit into a relationship...seryosohan...so...ayun,,,we planned of meeting in manila pagbakasyon ko...and it happened...

the very first time i saw him in person, i knew right then and there he is the one.he was working pa dati sa LTO espaƱa, sa may blumentritt..so..after office nya...april14 2005, we met...pumunta pa sya ng valenzuela city to meet me..nagkita kami sa tapat ng General Hospital ng Valenzuela..we talked...we walked...holding hands...along sa karuhatan road palabas ng mc arthur highway...then the night was to end na...hindi alam ng mga kasama ko sa haus kung san ako pumunta kaya we have to get home na..and the fact na hindi alam sa amin na sya ang bf ko..hehehe..so ayun..we said good nights...with a very sweet kiss on the lips..damn!that was really nice!!the scenario...sa harap ng madaming tao sa tapat ng hospital we kissed...

then after that...he brought me to his house here in manila...i met his father...his cousins..and his first born child...
after all those things..andaming revelations..he was separated woth the mother of his child...ayun...april 19...i gave him my all..my everything...and we we're ok from then on..a few more months and then i got pregnant...ayaw ng family ko sa knya..kasi college undergraduate sya..and ako lang nakaka-alam na medyo babaero pa din sya...bawal kami magkita during the whole time na buntis ako...but we see each other pa din...like when i go to school..we meet...tinatakasan ko chaperon ko just to see him..heto pa...ako ang buntis pero ako pa nagbibigay sa knaya ng pera...i mean he asked..ewan ko kung san nya ginagamit...but still binibigyan ko..

dec 20 2005 i was operated because of ovarian cyst...hindi sya pumunta..dahil sa takot nya sa parents ko at sa auntie ko..kaya my parents proved that he is not that responsible...lalo silang nagalit...but he kept on texting me na he loves me...na he wanted to see me...but lots of fears...na i should always listen to the song na HANGANG kasi para sken daw yung song na yun...
and ako nman si gaga ayun..i kept on listening to  that song...

until i gave birth..may 3, 2006..he went nung may 4 na...to sign the Birth cert nung baby...named mikyla yzabel..dami pa din complications...my paretns are still mad at him lalo na yung aunt ko na tumutulong magpapa-aral sken..

until on the 16th of may...he went at our house...brought some stuff for his daughter...milk diaper...diaper bag...everything...intense yung moment...galit pa parents ko eh..as in ayun..we were both nasermunan..but after an hour of sermon, interrogation nman..kasi it was the very first time na makaharap sya ng parents ko...tanong tanong...every thing about him...about his older kiddo..about what is his plans for us...ayun...nagkaliwanagan nman..i can see fear in his eyes..pero am proud of him...hinarap nya yun despite of all the fears...and then...after that...smooth na lahat...
yzabel was being accepted by his family...everybody loves her..as in REALLY REALLY LOVES HER..1 month old na sya hindi pa alam ng parents ni ZEUS na she exists...wala sa pamilya nya nakakaalam..kundi yung 3 cousins nya..na super close sa knya..but they kept the secret from his parents..
his mom..mama litz was so surprised when she heard the news..actually somebody texted her daw about me giving birth to an angel..so after days of knowing...they visited me and yzabel sa haus..the whole family (except pala sa youngest sister ni zeus kasi working sya)of which may i say 3 lang silang magkakapatid...panganay si zeus...only boy pa..kasama pumunta sa haus yung panganay nyang anak..vince thought na pinsan lang nya si yzabel..hehehe lahat smooth tlaga...happy kami ni zeus..super..with him and the baby..i know i am whole na..i am complete...
until sa bininyagan ang baby namin nung september 3 the same year...2 weeks prior the binyag nagreklamo na sya saken na nahihirapan sya sa ubo nya...na kahit anong inum nya ng mga gamot walang epekto sa knya...after the binyag, i advised him na magpacheck up sya...and ayun...it was later on diagnosed na meron syang enlargement of the heart..my mom was skeptical pa nga kasi sabi nya baka me tama na liver ni zeus..kasi lakas uminum dati...baka me hepa.but theer was no showing of that pa...he was admitted one week in a hospital MANILA DOCTORS..after that, labas na sya....but still he keeps on complaining na wala pa din difference..in ocotber one week n nman sya sa chinese gen. hospital.. after thst admission, he took a therapy for his heart..cardio therapy..twice a week...mama lita paid too much for that...pero he said wala pa din effect..so maintenance nlang ng gamot gawa nya..
until this event na tlagang nagpalala sa situation nya..his aunt died last week of november..merong sabi sabi na nakulam daw si nanay lydia kaya nmatay ng biglaan..so pati sya nadamay na sa sabi sabi na yun..na kesyo pati sya nakulam na din...so ayun...his mind was being crumpled with this issue...fears folds his mind..wwe are not living together, weekends lang kami lagi nagkakasama ng buo kami...kasi i am schooling pa din...ayun...pag may chance we grab the opportunity na magkasama kahit hindi weekeends..during the wake of his anut...he made all those kinds of lambing...na hindi ko sukat akalaing mga huling lambing nya sken...

andami nyang habilin about yzabel..about the siblings...he want them to grow together..no matter what...he keep on saying that he loves me very much...yung song na hangang...simula nung nagbuntis ako until his very last moment sinasabi nya sken...

after mailibing ng aunt nya...actually cremated pala..the last time i evr spoke to him was nung pumunta kami sa albularyo...para ipagamot sya...that night bfore kami maghiwalay..he kissed me goodnight...and he said i love you mi!

sa text..an sabi lang nya...everything will be alright.. i love you mommy..

dec10, his sister texted me, telling me na asa hospital daw sila..so i thought it was just a simple check up on a sunday morning...but she said zeus was on coma daw..hindi na gumising after long hours of sleep...nung gabi kasi galing daw ulit sila sa albularyo...ayun...i rushed to the chinese gen hospital..
that was the moment of my life na hindi ko alam if i will move or not..if i will breath or not..i saw him lying there..at the er..no life..no consciousness..his mom and sisters were crying then..i can't help myself but cry...the WHOLE ME fell into pieces again..the love of my life...unconscious without the chance of surviving...i want to shout..i am mad..i hate GOD! why me! why Zeus!?!?

ending...he died...me crying for 2 days...until i have accepted the fact that he is gone...i am so sad...depressed for the longest time...well i guess he just proven me the song HANGANG was really meant for me..

this is my story..my one great love...

para sa alaala ni Zeus B. Teves (loving son, father and "husband")

KidsAhoy BookFest Project: Happiness 2008

Start:     Dec 6, '08 10:00a
End:     Dec 6, '08 5:00p
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Thank God that it will start early.. i can stay there up to 4pm.. hehehehe